Phew!

OK, I have an out. I'm off to a friend's place to eat, drink, smoke, and get both stoned and - more importantly - distracted.

It'd be nice to be able to lead my life without needing this every time a public holiday rolls around.

Fuck, I need closure big time. One way or the other, anything is better than being left to speculate. It's like rolling out the red carpet for the cognitive distortions. I may have to contact the invisible woman just to force her to commit one way or the other, but not today. I'm just not up to it. Gotta love mental illness. It's true when they say the mind has power over the body...